I don't know...
"...We do not know what to do, but our eyes are upon you." ...Then the Spirit of the LORD came upon Jahaziel... This is what the LORD says to you: 'Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's.' ... 'You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.' "
from 2 chronicles 20
i try to fight too many of my own battles. i am a control freak. and i don't really have any good answers as to how to fix it besides "lose control". i am afraid that if i don't have control over something, it won't turn out the way i want it to. but really, when i do get something to go my way, it somehow blows up in my face... so, in the end, my way probably isn't the best way. God says "see, I told you so." what my flesh thinks it wants is at war with what deep down in my heart i know is what i should really want. it creates such a conflict of wills.
Paul says in romans 7: The law is good, then. The trouble is not with the law but with me, because I am sold into slavery, with sin as my master. I don't understand myself at all, for I really want to do what is right, but I don't do it. Instead, I do the very thing I hate. I know perfectly well that what I am doing is wrong, and my bad conscience shows that I agree that the law is good. But I can't help myself, because it is sin inside me that makes me do these evil things. I know I am rotten through and through so far as my old sinful nature is concerned. No matter which way I turn, I can't make myself do right. I want to, but I can't. When I want to do good, I don't. And when I try not to do wrong, I do it anyway. But if I am doing what I don't want to do, I am not really the one doing it; the sin within me is doing it. It seems to be a fact of life that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. I love God's law with all my heart. But there is another law at work within me that is at war with my mind. This law wins the fight and makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin? Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord.
oh Paul, i totally understand! when am i ever going to get to a point when i feel like i'm winning the war at least a little bit?
from 2 chronicles 20
i try to fight too many of my own battles. i am a control freak. and i don't really have any good answers as to how to fix it besides "lose control". i am afraid that if i don't have control over something, it won't turn out the way i want it to. but really, when i do get something to go my way, it somehow blows up in my face... so, in the end, my way probably isn't the best way. God says "see, I told you so." what my flesh thinks it wants is at war with what deep down in my heart i know is what i should really want. it creates such a conflict of wills.
Paul says in romans 7: The law is good, then. The trouble is not with the law but with me, because I am sold into slavery, with sin as my master. I don't understand myself at all, for I really want to do what is right, but I don't do it. Instead, I do the very thing I hate. I know perfectly well that what I am doing is wrong, and my bad conscience shows that I agree that the law is good. But I can't help myself, because it is sin inside me that makes me do these evil things. I know I am rotten through and through so far as my old sinful nature is concerned. No matter which way I turn, I can't make myself do right. I want to, but I can't. When I want to do good, I don't. And when I try not to do wrong, I do it anyway. But if I am doing what I don't want to do, I am not really the one doing it; the sin within me is doing it. It seems to be a fact of life that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. I love God's law with all my heart. But there is another law at work within me that is at war with my mind. This law wins the fight and makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin? Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord.
oh Paul, i totally understand! when am i ever going to get to a point when i feel like i'm winning the war at least a little bit?
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